So Erin and her troupe are headed back to Ottawa. I'm attracted to this girl. She's smart, funny, very beautiful, loves music. The fact that she's in a wheelchair doesn't even figure in the equation. She's beautiful when she laughs, it lights up her whole face. She's one of the most … alive, for lack of a better word… people I know. She came to breakfast with Lorraine – the woman with whom she lives – and Lorraine's daughter Emilie and one of Em's friends.
To be really honest, I have trouble describing what happened in words that would make sense to myself, much less to other people. Breakfast was fun – without much interrogation – and after that, we went to Jillians, the arcade at the forum. It was fun, but I felt like a fifth wheel. I didn't get the chance to talk to Erin all that much, and I actually spent most of the afternoon with Lorraine. Basically, they all had a very intimate dynamic, and I don't know, I just felt a bit out of place. I would have loved to have the chance to talk to Erin more, but I guess I'll have the chance next week.
I think she's still coming – she said she'd see me then, so I'm assuming it's still on. I think I passed the initial screening, but it just felt bizarre as hell to have 3 chaperones, an expression Michel coined and is very appropriate. And even then, I just feel so… bewildered by the whole experience. I guess I'll find out where things stand the next time I talk to her, which should be tonight, I guess.
As a side note, this song should really be added to my previous list.
Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh, let's go back to the start.
Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Heads are a science apart.
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the start.
I was just guessing,
At numbers and figures,
Pulling your puzzles apart.
Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.
Tell me you love me,
Come back and hold me,
Oh, when I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' tails,
Comin' back as we are.
Nobody said it was easy,
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.