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I feel like a headless chicken. I've been running around all friggin day, but a lot of that falls into the “hurry up and wait” category. I got my passport application signed and delivered, some paperwork handled for various clients, and now I'm in the middle of nowhere, working for another client.

The silly season is starting early this year. These days, I'm often feeling unfocused anxiety. Right now, I could use a consultation with Dr. Livet…. paging Dr. Livet, Dr. Glenn Livet…

My brain hurts. I just finished watching Charlie's Angels 2. Ow ow ow. That has to be one of the lamest movies ever… but I'm a sucker for Cameron Diaz' ass, so I had to do it, I just had to.

On a lighter note, I spent the day making my world famous pasta sauce, and the apartment smells of oregano and tomatoes. Hmmmmm. I was thinking of making lasagna tonight, but I've been sampling my sauce all afternon, and I'm not that hungry anymore :P Today has been a chores day: laundry, cleaning, dishes, bleh. All in all, a rather slow-paced day. I could use a few more like it.

So what's in plan for tonight? Some boob tube, maybe chatting with a few people online if work or studying leaves some free time :) I wish 'em all well.

I've discovered the joys of owning a blender. I know it sounds quite silly, but hear me out. I've had problematic food allergies, and they've just gotten worse in the last few years. The stuff I'm allergic to severely limits my ability to go out to eat, so to prevent myself from going insane, always eating the same thing, I've become a rather decent cook. Hey, I'm a biochemist by formation, I'm good at following recipies :P

So anyway, I bought a blender, and since then, I've been converted to the joys of cream of anything soup :) My best one so far is a cream of carrot soup, but I'm making cream of leek tonight for a xmas party. Hmmmmm.

On that note, I have to go cook :)

Anybody have recipies to share?

Even though a lot of shit is happening these days, it's always good to take a step back and realize that people care about you, and vice-versa.

Lets see.

It started with me waking up every two hours or so last night because I was having really fucked up dreams, then I broke my cell phone antenna – FOR THE SECOND TIME, and now I have to deal with shit from ze ex-gf. I loved her, I really did, but I swear she's the most neurotic person I know.

Quote from our last email exchange:

[…] I simply sent a quick email making you aware that I now had an online journal, like I did to ALL of my friend. YOU are the one who took the time to write me the flame-mail from hell, telling me basically that I was a desperate, intellectually lazy, self-destructive moron. Why, thank you.

So now, I'm in a really good mood today. I want this week to be over, so I can go out tonight, have a drink or two with Michel, and spend time with people who are special to me. You know who you are.

my favourite client in the whole, wide world… I have no patience for bureaucracy, incompetence and just plain ol' stupidity.

I need to fill out a passport application, which just rekindled my loathing of administrativia. Urgh. Whimsical detail though, I put my bestest friend as a reference for it, and that made me realize that I've known him for 13 years. Scary how time flies.

I'm going to SF, it's official. Flight information is below. We'll be staying at the Hyatt at Fisherman's Wharf.

Sat 27-Dec-03

Montreal (YUL) Depart 8:45 am to San Francisco (SFO) Arrive 11:54 am

Sun 4-Jan-04

San Francisco (SFO) Depart 11:20 pm Chicago (ORD) Arrive 5:06 am +1 day
Chicago (ORD) Depart 7:05 am to Montreal (YUL) Arrive 10:11 am

Sometimes, I just wish it was legal to beat up stupid people. I'm not a violent man; I don't have repressed violent tendencies. But some people just deserve a short, sharp kick to the head. Advertisement people and middle managers would be preferred targets. I'd sign the petition to get rid of stupid people.

Bah!

Now, for most of my close friends, this will be another “oh dear gawd, not again” post, but meh, this is my blog dagnabbit, I can be as despotic as I damn well want :)

I've come to the conclusion that I'm an atypical man. Though recend evidence seems to point out that I'm not the only one to feel this way, anecdotal evidence from the women in my life would seem to indicate that I'm in a minority. Then again, the women in my life might not represent a good sampling either :)

So for those of who who wonder what the hell I'm talking about, here's the deal. Sleeping alone sucks, and cuddling is better than wild monkey sex. Yes, there, I've said it. My dirty little secret is out. I'm a cuddler. Comments I've gotten from my friends include: “dude, you're a chick!”, various gagging and puking sounds, and one indicating that I was smart to play up the sensitivity side to impress girls and get them into bed. (Side note, the first two comments come from women, the last, from a guy).

Now don't get me wrong. I like sex. I've had sex. Sex is good. But I don't do casual sex. Because of a story that's way too long to tell right now, and is also out of scope, I attach a very high emotional content to the act, and thus, have only had the occasion to do it with one partner. I've taken the decision to not have sex with people I'm not ready to say “I love you” and mean it. It's a house rule.

So, basically, until I find a steady companion, no sex. But I still seek intimacy, and love physical human contact. Having my haircut is one of the most sensual acts that I can do with my clothes on. Hence, cuddling.

Recent events have reminded me how enjoyable it is to share bed real-estate with a warm body. The feel of smooth skin, the smell of a person, shared body heat. The knowledge that someone trusts you enough to let you in to their personal space. I'll keep a very good memory of that night for a long time to come. I'll admit that the line between a platonic cuddling and something more is easily crossed, but the take home message for this post is, as I'm writing it from my laptop in my bed, sleeping alone sucks, and a pillow just doesn't cut it anymore.

Good night :)