What is it with the pseudo-spunk today??? As I was looking over the lunch menu in the cafeteria, one of the counter-monkeys dropped a squeeze bottle of caesar dressing on the counter, the contents of which arched gracefully and left pearly drops that contrasted nicely with my black t-shirt. I think I should have stayed in bed today.
Tag: ducks
I hate people
I'm peeved from a very gross experience in the showers just now. i walked in to a shower cubicle and was getting ready to shower after my workout when I noticed a large runny white glob on the shower door that looked suspiciously too gloopy to be shampoo, if you know what I mean.
I mean, jesus people, show some common fucking decency.
Worrying about the girl.
I'm worried about my sweetie. Maybe more than I should, but I still do. She's not feeling well and there's not a lot I can do about it. It's not life threatening, but it's eating away at her and making her miserable and tired, which is not helping her general mental well being.
I don't know what to do, and neither does she.
A bad night
I woke up at 2 am this morning, completely awake and unable to get back to sleep until sometime around 4:30. As such, I have the feeling I will be completely useless today.
Hopefully today will be better
it's too hot to do anything useful. Katy feels like shit because of her IBS and the strain is starting to show physically and emotionally. I'm going to make another appointment for her on monday to see if she can get something a bit stronger then peppermint oil to try and releive the pain. It's a nasty cycle though. She feels like shit, so she doesn't sleep. She gets stressed, then exhausted, then depressed, all of which aggravates her IBS. Lather, rinse, repeat. I don't know what to do to break the cycle.
Le poo.
I'm worried about the girl these days. She's going through a rough patch, and key phrases that always make my back shiver have reared their ugly head again. Not good, not good at all :(
Give her some love.
I know I will.
Yes, I do not feel social today
But given how crappy I feel, it's not hard to understand why. Last night was plagued by weird dreams an disturbing imagery. I think one of the allergy products I took yesterday didn't play well with the others. Visions of car chases, people with singing heads coming out of their mouths, pizza demons, and Karen from Will&Grace doing really, really weird shit with a book-that-should-never-be-opened did not make for a peaceful night's sleep. When I woke up sometime during the night, my eyes were all puffy and irritated, and I started a sneezing/sniffling fit right then and there. I was teh sexay, let me tell you.
So yeah, this morning, all I feel like doing in holing up in the bedroom and reading and waiting for it to all pass. I apologize for being antisocial, but I just don't want to deal with people today :(
My sinuses hate me
My seasonal allergies have not been this bad for ages. Now granted, it's hot as hell and muggy to boot, and the pollen count is through the roof, but it's been years since I've had to take benadryl and a steroid-based nasal spray to complement a once-a-day antihistamine and still feel like shit and go through half a box of tissues. Not a happy bunny am I.
On the complete irrationality of phobias
I told myself today that I would walk to work with my arms bare and my head held high. I told myself that I would not fear the flying insects from hell.
So just to spite me, the universe had a laugh and I got buzzed at the back gate of the EBI and let out a little girl squeek.
I don't know why I'm so scared of flying insects, or where it came from. From my sessions with a phobia therapist, I've kind of come to the conclusion that part of my fear is because my allergies have gone rather haywire in recent years, and I don't know if I'll die if I get stung. I'm starting to wonder if that's all of it though. Rationally, the fear of pain can't be the reason I'm afraid of flying insects because, I'm not afraid of needles and, well, I've literally had my skin pierced a gajillion times in the course of getting my tattoos. Furthermore, I always carry enough allergy medication that I could probably swim in garlic and poison ivy and be ok.
I've also come to the conclusion that the trigger is the high-pitched buzzing noise. I'm forcing myself to go out more. When I'm cutting the grass, apparently I'm surrounded by bees and I don't flinch (mostly because I don't see them and can't hear them, so that may not count).
I don't know.
I just want to be able to enjoy summer like normal people.
Today will not be a good day
I can feel it in my bones.